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Saturday, June 15, 2024

Bulli of Willow and Kikki fame - Tapping into Trauma - BYO is coming to a fine-dining restaurant near you

 “In time of test, family is best.” 

– Slavic, Roaring, Saying via Veronika 


Bulli Views

I reminded Barry tonight that I grew up with four sisters and one  brother. That’s how I learned to dance—waiting for the bathroom

In family life, love is the oil that eases friction, the cement that binds closer together, and the music that brings harmony.

What a special day with Mariella, Barry, Isobel, Elliott, Leo and Rafael together with Willow and Kiki …



 

Mariella’s meals are better than Michelin…


Time together with wonderful friends and family is priceless especially when you drink Caucasian holy water …  
Nine must-do highlights of a trip to Bulli and the ’Gong



 I was really sad to hear Francoise Hardy's died. I loved her songs and she was beautiful and fascinating. Her memoir, 'The Despair of Monkeys and Other Trifles', is wonderful as well


French pop icon and actor Françoise Hardy has died, aged 80


Like David Bowie, I was smitten with Francoise Hardy ever since my auntie Zofka brought her tapes to the High Tatra Mountains in 1970s from Reims …


ON the high slopes of Planina pod Golico village, in northwest Slovenia, I’d come to discuss mountains with a farmer. Vera Grguric had talked me through the rhythms of life beneath Golica mountain; how in June she would herd 20 or so cows up to high pasture from Pr’Betel farmhouse just as four previous generations of Grgurics had; how the family felled surrounding encroaching spruce and larch forest every few years. 

After a couple of days’ walking among the Julian Alps, Vera’s place had felt like a hug. My apartment had white curtains trimmed with red gingham and a wooden balcony carved with lovehearts and flowers. I’d eaten her beef and struklji cheese dumplings in a room with folksy paintings of village life. A crucifix hung on one wall.

I’ve been visiting Slovenia for 18 years — this is its most magical part


BYO is coming to a fine-dining restaurant near you

The trend is no longer confined to lower-priced eateries, which is good news for diners who have their own wine collections.
In nearly every respect, Jessi Singh’s latest Indian restaurant is the epitome of the thoroughly modern fine diner. Due to open at the base of a ritzy apartment block in Melbourne’s Collingwood in July, pint-sized Aanya will boast a glamorous 16-seat kitchen counter, chefs with Michelin-starred CVs and a lengthy list of ultra-refined cocktails and mocktails, all made from scratch.
There’s just one thing missing at Aanya, at least according to the unwritten rules of the contemporary high-end dining scene.

When I was little and watching Disney princess movies, I so distinctly remember wanting the stories to be entirely conflict-free. I didn’t want a parent to die, an evil stepmother, a tense quest to battle the dragons – I just wanted to watch the day in the life of the princess. Watch her wake up, make pancakes, get a head massage, play with her dogs, ride her horses. Just happiness. Screw adversity.
Then n life happened, and I went what the actual f--k? I started to learn the value of storytelling, and being seen on screen. The power of its connection in making our suffering feel not so agonisingly lonely.
Beyond my innocent pancake days, as an adult storyteller I felt compelled by the writerly pull to step into the lava – the core of our suffering, and what can become the potential core of our transcendence. But I want to make it clear, sexual violence should never be linked to lofty statements of “things happen for a reason” and “there is a silver lining to everything”. Sexual assault is implicitly wrong, criminal and a heinous act of egregious male entitlement that destroys life.
But it happened to me. It’s a trauma I will never transcend from. A trauma that shattered a decade of my life when I should have been forming healthy attachments. PTSD I continue to navigate.
It was in 2019, after I had written the very first draft of my TV show Exposure, that this burning hot lava became clear. I was on a work trip to LA, and I woke up in the middle of the night in my hotel room in West Hollywood and realised: this draft, this show, was the paradoxical echoing of my burning rage towards men and my shameful desperation to be validated by them. Trauma isn’t neat or clean. It’s messy, complicated, and at times, f--king humiliating.
I wanted the same gender who had so brutally violated my integrity to restore it. This was an agony I lived in for an appalling amount of my youth. What I didn’t realise the night of my West Hollywood epiphany was that acceptance was still an abstract concept. Denial still had its stronghold. Exposure became my calling. Jacs (the lead character) had been born and she was going to take me to my knees before I could stand back up again.
I was in the lava. It scorched my skin and melted my flesh. I couldn’t run or hide. The drafts were due and I was forced to sit there and write through it.
LUCY COLEMAN
I wrote episodes one to four feverishly. The drafts flowed. It was Jacs as I knew her: angry, embarrassing, everything suppressed and buried down.
Then came the first draft of episode five. And, well, it all just started to come undone. I was in the lava. It scorched my skin and melted my flesh. I couldn’t run or hide. The drafts were due and I was forced to sit there and write through it. A fictionalised version of this life-shattering event. I was forced to face this irrevocable moment when I walked into the path of a male perpetrator. That it really had happened. That it really was horrific. And the fact that I was in tears day after day. That it had really happened to me.
I was in the deafeningly quiet room of acceptance. And it burnt.
What I didn’t expect was that on the other side of that acceptance – and I know you are all wanting me to say “transcendence” – but what was waiting for me on the other side of flying through the production and the adrenaline-fuelled collaboration of TV-making was the giant, cavernous well of grief.
That over a decade of my romantic life had been stolen by maladaptive behaviours and pain. That I was still single, with frozen eggs. That I couldn’t shake this omnipresent, suffocating sadness. That every news day a woman had been violated, raped or murdered. Was there hope? Really? Honestly? Was there hope?
This piece flowed out of me quite naturally until I hit this question. A question I know is too raw for many women in Australia right now. As I begged a friend for words of wisdom one night, they offered me something that has since sat with me with clarity. “I have a right to happiness even if this person never sees the justice or vindication they deserve. I have a right to happiness.”
Our collective anger can fuel change. Reclaiming my agency and setting myself on a path of healing can restore my empowerment. And, I have a right to happiness.
This is an agonising and terrifying time for Australian women, and for the men who have also been affected by male violence. From the bottom of my heart, I want to thank the advocates who are out there every day fighting the good fight for meaningful change. Sarah Williams, Tarang Chawla, Chanel Contos. Journalists Jess Hill and Hannah Ferguson. Just to name only a few. I know there is a growing army of many at this crucial forefront. They are the people who give me hope.
What I also hope is that the storytelling of Exposure will give you a moment to feel seen in your darkest hour, and alleviate your loneliness just that little bit. To you, I say: I’m just so sorry. You have a right to happiness and I love you.